Sorry, been there done that....

and it wrecked me pretty hard emotional. I spilled my heart out to you, I apologized and I took the blame for EVERYTHING that happened between us! You had nothing to say in return, nothing about how you felt for me. "We might be together some day it's not "Far Fetched" Mmm Hmm. I appreciate you being there for me, As a friend. No you can not have a kiss goodbye. (So I can feel all the love I have for you that will never go anywhere.) Fell for it the last, we said goodbye and it made my heart melt. So no I'm sorry, I will not kiss you good-bye and keep telling my heart it's going to happen. You either forgive, love me, and want to be together or you don't. It doesn't take forever to know if you love and want someone "I thought you weren't going to rush me" sounds a lot like, "Let me have my cake and eat it too for awhile." let me fool around, and be technically single before I settle down. No, this is like Deja Vu of a person who ruined me emotionally. A person you know of, a person you hate, so of course I cant say... Stop I feel like this is the same situation as "You know who!" without you being offended. Sorry, we're friends. No we can not cuddle, no I will not kiss you goodbye. The best part is you can't read this! & Sorry I don't believe for one second that SHE isn't the reason you're acting this way. If you could careless about her. You wouldn't defend her, or get so defensive. "People can change, she means well, why do you hate her? you've never even spoken to her." I don't need to, I've seen all I need to see with my own eyes. I am done. I won't mention a reconciliation ever again, I won't tell you I love you ever again, & you won't hear another word about my moving plans again, because you will not be a part of them. I spilled out all my love and apologies in a long message and got back. "Ditto" Oh how personal. It just touched my soul.... Blah Blah Blah SO NO!!  I promised to put my trust in you, but my heart and gut are telling me you are waiting to see what could come of something or someone else. NO! If I'm not your first choice then I am no choice. It took everything I had in me not to bawl my head off today. I'm hurt but I'm going to be strong, I  have too much to get done so my son and I can start our lives in our own home and make a new beginning. I'll find someone who would jump at not just a first chance, but a second too because he can see how great I am. I won't go through this again, I know the signs I know the outcome! God Bless this blog! :) Ahhh that was relieving. P.S When and how long did you really love me? You must be a great actor, because if you love someone as much as you led on you loved me, you wouldn't change your mind so quickly. Good-Bye. Time to move on, crying and all but I'll heal and find someone who thanks god everyday that he has me. PEACE!
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